My Conscious and Sub Conscious seem like different people

I don’t know, do you find yourself with an inner strife?

I can actually sense the different layers of my personality conflicting over things. You would think the conscious would dominate! That you could choke down your wayward, uncanny perceptions, and ignore the truths you don’t even want to explore. I’ve spent hours trying to focus my blood flow to areas of my brain, trying to dominate the battle within by physical force. I’ve even slapped myself, which I laugh at, even though some readers will probably grow unnecessary concern. After all, who is consenting in this scenario?

But, what if you lost control?

Fair, I can only use my experience to empathize with the people who have. Self love is vital, desiring a future for this organic stasis may require addressing deep rifts within yourself. How should you address your deep wants, when they are out of your conscious, physical control? Society never addresses that every decision you make isn’t in your immediate control. So then how do you dig in and pass tests of yourself beneath or at the periphery of your perception? What’s worse, how do you handle seeing your interlocutors as their deep truths surface, as you meet their subconscious, and become familiar?

It’s there, you see it don’t you? In small glances, in changes in their brow. Hints in their posture. Say nothing of the more overt impulsive and shared experiences, explosions of excitement we share when our eyes meet.. Butterflies. How do you know they are your feeling, and not the counterparts? Oh there is so much there! So much we ignore. Things we discuss mundanely, with almost no curiosity. And what about the pheromones we release from our noses, among other, ahem, more sensitive places?

When you expose another’s subconscious to themselves, they have to address the rift, something they may not want to do. Healthy people tend to have resonance, in their conscious and subconscious.

Well, I’ve bored you. I know I have, it’s too wandering. Too slow, and frustrating. I haven’t given you a morsel of savory to continue downing this drivel.

So which is it? Do you want to dig in to the space between your ears, and exercise your conscious against your subconscious? Or shall we proceed to how we are being programmed by everyone around us subconsciously? After all, those desires you have, they didn’t come from nowhere.